Death and Sadness
June 26, 2009
I don’t usually get teary eyed when people died. When Kurt Cobain died I was devastated. Yesterday, when I heard about Michael Jackson I was overwhelmed with grief. It’s not because he was a pop legend. It’s not because he laid the pavement for Justin Timberlake, JZ , and many others. Because he was 6 months younger than my mom. And I started to thinking about losing her.
When I was a little girl I watched Beat It on MTV. I watch Thriller and was scared out of my mind. I was only a tot at the time. I remember watching Michael Jackson with my mom. My sister at one point wanted to marry Michael Jackson. I remember him standing up for Ryan White. He changed music. He created master pieces that will live forever. It is sad for his young kids. I hope the media is kind and respects them. They lost a parent and that is a tragedy.
My mom may be crazy but she is my mom. I would be a wreck if I lost her. I know it is going to happen. I just want it to happen way in the future. I am not ready to lose her. I know she is not in the best health. I know she has thyroid disease, heart disease, among other things. It scares me to the bone. When people die who are so close to her age I start thinking about losing her. It is difficult not to. It is just one more reminder we are only here for a short while.
