Midterm Anxiety
June 17, 2009
I am midterm already. : ) I don’t feel confident like I did midterm last term. Mainly because we’ve only had one test in Spanish and that did not go over well. Spanish is my weak spot. I try but it is definitely not something I can do automatically. That frustrates me. I like to master something and move on. I get uncomfortable when I have to sit with things and use every inch of my brain to think about it. That’s college. Right?
Baby Daddy Drama caused me to be a little distracted yesterday. That happens from time to time. Even though I chewed him out, I wasn’t really mad at him. I was mad at me. I was pissed that I can’t do what I need to do for my kids right now. I can’t provide them with insurance, money, or anything at the moment. Not for the lack of trying either. I am trying. It’s just we’re not exactly in a good position right now. If I could put Pat on my insurance I would in a heart beat. I think Pat has to have an address in our county. Either way, I can’t fix the situation immediately and that pisses me off. Not his dad. I did get his meds despite the lack of money or insurance. That’s what we moms do. We get things done. : )
For those of you who read and think I *steal* ideas….I have been blogging for 6 years. I have recycled ideas from my old blogs. There’s been a few. I repeat myself often. It’s partly because I forget. I go back to ideas I had and elaborate. That’s just what I do. I do read blogs over and over again. Not because I’m a stalker but because it’s interesting peaking into people’s lives. So don’t flatter yourselves thinking you’re special. I read this one lady’s blog all the time. Her daughter died from cancer earlier this year. Sometimes her blogs get me thinking about my loss. So I write about it. That’s what blogging is. If you don’t want people reading your blog, don’t have one. That is the beauty of the blogging world, it is an option. When you have a blog you run the risk of people thinking you have good ideas and mimic them. You also run the risk of people criticizing you. Such is life. Get over it and move on.
