Counting Down to 30

Come November I will have been on this planet 30 years. I don’t have much to say for my almost 30 years. A few kids and a husband. That’s all wonderful but I want to make more of a dent in the world than just my family. Family is a wonderful thing. I appreciate it and am thankful for it. I’m talking about me, that invisible person that hides behind four kids and a husband.

When I turned 20 I was a totally different person. I was heartbroken, needy, and damaged. When I turned 25 I was stronger. I was a mom of 4 and a wife. By 27 I knew what I wanted to be when I grew up, I just had to do the work to get there. At 29 I finally entered WSU and am working towards my goals.

When I turn 30 I want to be different than I am at this moment. I want to be just a little more secure in the idea of going to grad school. I want to have my Mary Kay business moving forward. I want to have lost the 20+ pounds that weigh me down. I want the following decade to be filled with growth and not as many setbacks. I want my marriage to be even stronger. And over the next decade I can look forward to my first child going to college! How great will that be!

The one accomplisment I want to have is graduating with my Masters. Hopefully, if all goes well I will be doing that in 4 years. Once I do that my entire life is going to turn around. I will finally be able to support myself. I will have a career that’s all mine. And I can show everyone who said I was nothing in my 20s that they were wrong. Or I’ll be the bigger person and just hold my head high.

Either way, I hope in my 30s I can carve out a place for myself and my family. Hopefully, Kris and I will get some time together. I hope we can travel the world. I hope I get to see my children graduate from high school. Or at least two of them.  It will be better than my 20s.